Becoming An Empty Vessel...
Opening up to receive from Source.
Dear Seeker of Petals and Reveries! 💛
“I open to harmony, beauty and truth. With every inhale, I am renewed and return to balance. With every exhale I release decay and what no longer serves. Love is my compass. Peace is my power.”
Zera DeRose, The Rose Temple
Welcome to my latest pondering dear friends! I am sitting here at my laptop, so many thoughts and words that want to come out, yet they are swirling around like a whirlpool. Where to begin? What do I even want to say? And this alone is a reflection of my journey at this point in time. Today is day 31 of my morning and evening anointing ritual. This alone has been interesting with magical moments, and then of course a descent into disconnection from it, renewed mystical experiences and then another spiral into disconnection. A relentless questioning of what is my purpose? What is my soul’s blueprint? What is my offering to the world, which is really the offering of the Divine, the Beloved, through me? It is enough to do my head in! And there lies the problem, my head.
Probably 2 months ago, I started channeling a message from the masculine face of Divinity. It was a welcome home message. A message of Him waiting for my return. I was told to forget everything I had read. Forget everything I had learned. Stop reading, stop learning~just forget everything! And I did, for a few days, perhaps a week and things began to flow differently. However, I fell back into the old patterns of getting into my head. Thinking too much and trying too hard. I was over intellectualising everything, once again. I have to say, this is bloody exhausting!!
Your heart is a garden—tend it well, and it will bloom with love in every season.🌹
The Rose Temple
I am doing a course at the moment and a suggested book to read is, “It’s Not Your Money” by Tosha Silva. This book is brilliant! The principles can be applied to everything in life, not just money. Reading this book is helping me to surrender, even though my mind is fighting this with every tooth and nail! I can slowly see a shift in my way of thinking. I can see that my way of being is becoming less about me and more about my purpose of being on this planet. It’s funny, because I had this epiphany a few years ago, but it now seems to be integrating within my being more.
"The path of the mystic is a rose-lit spiral—each thorn a teacher, each petal a revelation, and at the heart, the fragrance of the Divine." 🌹
The Rose Temple
So what is the point of this musing? This morning I picked up my tarot deck and out of complete frustration, I asked, “What is my purpose? What is my soul’s purpose in accordance with the Divine?” I must say, the cards that came out were indeed powerful and did confirm what I do feel. I know I am here to be of spiritual service, in some form. And to be honest, I think this is my whole struggle. I don’t know what that looks like. This is where I end up in my head instead of just allowing myself to be shown and guided. So for those of you who have read the above book, you will understand. For those that haven’t, in very very simple terms, it is about realising that everything we receive ultimately comes from Source. Nothing is ours. Nothing belongs to us, but to Source/God/The Divine. When we try to self source, things don’t flow as they should. There is a constant struggle. For me, this is very true.
Hence, what I wanted to share with you today is two of the cards that came out in my reading. I laughed when I saw them and honestly, they sum up the above sentiment perfectly! My journey at the moment is to realise that my only source is the Beloved, the Divine. If I am trying to self source, or source through others, I will be financially, spiritually and emotionally bankrupt. But… if my provisions come from source, I won’t want for anything. Source will literally be my bank. For everything. However, I need to empty myself to allow divine inspiration to flow through me. I need to get out of the way, and this I’m sure, is something we all could practice. I would like to add, that yes, we do receive from others, but there is a difference between Source providing for us through others as opposed to being reliant on others, that aren’t from Source. (HUH?!)
I will give you an example. Since reading the book, I have been walking around saying, “I am opened to receive.” The other day I bumped into a lady that works for a bakery. I have known her for several years now. She was carrying something and said, “Here you go! Someone was supposed to pick this up but didn’t.” She popped it into my shopping bag and told me it was a bee sting. This is a yummy cake filled with a custard cream filling. I didn’t think too much of it until I was journaling that night. I had been meaning to listen to a short course I purchased on dreaming with the bees. I had also been listening to podcasts that spoke of the bee priestesses. I have been wanting to delve into dream work more as I have had experiences in past dreams that are just incredible. As for the bee priestesses and my own experiences with bees, I was hoping I wouldn’t be initiated by a “bee sting!” Well, as I said, later as I was journaling, it hit me. Firstly, I had received a gift in the cake. Next it was a Bee Sting cake!! I received my bee sting, and it didn’t hurt. It was rather sweet and delicious. So, Source had given me a gift through someone. I was open to receive. It was magical in how aligned it was. Had I tried to seek this, it wouldn’t have arrived in such a magical way.
And this my dear friends is opening ourselves up to receive. If we get out of our own way, if we empty ourselves of our expectations of what we think we should receive, we receive what is meant for us. In magical ways. I am not doing justice to the message and guidance of the book. I really do recommend reading it, and I am very grateful to have been guided towards it. Slowly, but surely, there is an energetic shift happening. Since the bee sting cake and the short course I have had two prophetic dreams. I have received from the Beloved what I needed, and I am becoming more open to being wooed by the Divine. It is truly like learning to do the tango or waltz, but with the Invisible Force that wants nothing more than to dance with us in return.
As a little footnote, the message I received regarding the 9 of Swords in the reading was showing me how I have been in the “hive mind.” This is how we have been programmed into being in our heads. Being too intellectual and losing touch with our intuitive nature. Too much in our mind and not enough in our hearts and bodies. And this is particularly true for women. We aren’t meant to be in our heads, we are meant to be in the “womb of the hive.”
Today, I leave you with a prompt? What can you release to become an empty vessel to receive from The Beloved? In what way are you blocking the gifts waiting to be received? How can you invite The Beloved to dance with you, to serenade you, to woo you? And if you did open yourself up, what gifts would you receive? What would change in your life? (Ok, that was more than one prompt, but hey!)
Oh, seeing it is the New Moon in earthy, sense loving Taurus, how can you move out of your head and into your body? How can you tune into your heart and womb space more? And dear men, you can tap into the womb space too, because you did come from a womb! You can also tap into the cosmic womb that ultimately dreamed you into being.
So my dear friends, that’s all from me for now. I hope you have enjoyed this writing from me. I am always open to hearing from you.
Until we meet again in the garden of the Rose…
With love & gratitude,
Zera 🌹✨
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